Monday, November 26, 2007

Of missing gorilla and godzilla

I came into office today and found my favourite Gorilla tissue box and T-Rex Godzilla zoids model missing! After asking around my office staff and to no avail (suspecting that they had been stolen over the weekend), I decided to send an email out to the rest of STA staff to see if they have seen it. In a very short space, Jose replied and apologised that he had taken them for a filming purpose, and had forgotten to inform me. Thank God they were not stolen!

However, I felt bad that the people involved were indirectly "reprimanded" by my bosses for this little fiasco... I emailed them personally to apologize, but one of them replied to say that I should have apologized to all the colleagues and shouldn't have involved our Assistant Director. Now I don't know if he meant it seriously or if he was just joking, but I felt even worse... so much so for trying to be nice! It really bugged me so much that I went to clarify with this person...

Question: Why did I feel bad even though it was not my fault to begin with, and what's more is that it was only over such a small matter??

Answer: Perhaps I was insecured at how others would view me, that they would be gossiping behind my back and saying that I'm blowing a fuss over such a small matter.

Resolution: As some of my friends have encouraged me, it was not my fault and I should not feel bad about it. On my part, I think I need to remind myself that as long as I am doing the right thing in God's eyes, I don't have to bother about what others say or think about me.

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